Sad day

Well, today AF started so no pregnancy this month. I am sad and disappointed but realize its only my first try and wont be my last. However, hubby and I are going to put it off for a few months to save money and get his business going. Even though I am frustrated with that. I know its for the best.

TWW ( two week wait)

Well, its getting down to the finish of the TWW and I am nervous as can be. We inseminated on Nov 12/13 which was a little bit strange. Nothing like trying to be romantic with the husband and he goes and get the vial of sperm and squirts it into me. Don't get me wrong I am glad we have this option but still.

So, now it on to the dreaded two week wait....
I also stopped drinking coffee that week...what am I thinking I should have done that before..
My first week I experience headaches and exhaustion ( could be coffee withdrawal)
This second week the headache finally went away and my lower back has been hurting since ( don't know if this is a good sign)

Others signs I had a little bit of dizziness, lightheadness and vivid dreams. However, I wake up with the sense that I am not pregnant.

I took a test today which I think ended up being early and showed a negative.

I checked my calendar and my last two cycles have been 30-32 days and I am only on day 24 so maybe its not ready to show anything. I am going to wait now to see if I actually miss my period.

As of right now, my stomach been bothering me today and I am tired. I could go to sleep right now but its only 6pm.

My wait will be over in a week and I am scared. Scared that I wont be, Scared that I will be and scared that I never will be..

But in the mean time...

I miss coffee!